1. buy eeeee eee eeee by tao lin or “not available” like it says on powell’s books here.
2. read it.
3. go to bear parade.
4. read it.
5. feel okay, and like noah cicero says in this post, not clever but honest and actually living. feel like a person and not a witty robot with mechanical ideas that sees language as a funny and smart thing to be tooled, instead of the only way to non-physically communicate emotion with another human being.
here is a poem, because i feel like ‘self-publishing’ a poem.
i buy a video game off of ebay
this rated ebay transaction validates my existence in some way.
there is this desire i have, that the most awkward
of men, the ones with no social skills,
are all i want to be. this is the knowledge i get from the internet:
that people know what sounds the best, alone,
and that there is this sound
when my computer starts, that means nothing but regression,
and when my computer opens pop-up windows,
i know that i am alone
and no one cares to talk to me, and my social skills do not matter,
and my material possessions, they more than
acknowledge my character.
the websites i visit, the number of credit cards i use, this video game
and the poetry i write, i will use to add meaning to meaningless things.